Burnt Out and it Feels so Good

I have a confession…. I’m burnt out and I’m proud to admit it.

A little back story…

I don’t like to complain, I don’t like to be tired with what I’m doing. I don’t like to be ungrateful.

I’m the type of person that has a bad day and always tries to thank God that he even allowed me to have it. Every day is a gift. My kids waking up everyday is a gift, my husband kissing me goodbye in the morning and kissing me goodnight in the evening is a gift.

I know this.

I’m a stay at home mom who will and kinda is homeschooling, that is my choice, that is a blessing and while some days I wanna cry, I pick my laundry basket up and try to be the best mom/wife I can be. Who knows how long this special gift will last right?

I try to show love and kindness to everyone and I try even harder to love people, actually love them. I will admit there is a handful of people that are pretty much a constant in my life that make it very hard sometimes.

But this last week and I know probably several times in the past, I’ve been just done. There are a lot of balls in the air and I feel like right now they are at my feet. I am not arrogant enough to believe that I’m the only one to go through this, everyone does and I’m not trying to play the woe is me game. But I will say that in the past I haven’t let myself admit when I’m tired or in a funk or burnt out and this time around I kinda feel like shouting it to the roof tops. Not complain but accept that this comes even with the most exciting of lives.

I’ve realized I shouldn’t be ashamed of feeling tired and burnt out. I shouldn’t go into hiding or pretend mode. I shouldn’t feel like the dead beat mom who isn’t stoked to pick up toys for the 11 hundredth time! It’s okay to be tired, it’s okay to feel burnt out and I should feel good that I have things that keep me busy and burn me out.

Honestly I’m just happy that I’m able to have balls in the air in the first place. I’m happy that I have food in the fridge that I’m too tired to prepare. Yes I’m ending this on a positive note because as I’ve explained I can’t help myself….

Just because I’m tired or burnt out or feel like curling up into a ball and sleeping for 12 hours doesn’t mean I’m a failure and it doesn’t mean I’m not grateful. It just means I have that much more to hold onto. That much more to embrace and that maybe a weekend away is well overdue.

So to the rooftops I sing….

I’m burnt out and it feels so good!

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16 thoughts on “Burnt Out and it Feels so Good”

  1. I’ve always tried not to be too dramatic about bad days and still be grateful. That’s why I LOVE alone time with God because I can cry, whine, and release all my frustration without affecting others or coming off ungrateful. I’m so glad understands our troubles.

  2. Wow. I was right there with ya today. I’m so impressed at how positive you are. I think I give myself more time outs than I give my kids! And so many days I say “I’m done”, like today. And then when the kids are sleeping and the house is quiet, I can’t wait for tomorrow when we can all start over again and I can see their little smiles.

  3. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
    2 Cor 12:9
    It’s okay to admit your bad days…your weakness. You are still finding and keeping joy! I’ve felt burnt out for a while…that’s okay because we keep on going 🙂 Hugs from a fellow mom in the trenches!

  4. From my experience, being home with children for 22 years, “joy comes in the morning.” 🙂 Burn out absolutely will happen again and again. BUT…so will the mountain top experiences when you feeling that wonderful joy from being with your children. Sometimes it’s after a season of burnout, that we go on to have an amazing fruitful season! Hope that is around the corner for you.

  5. Thank you for your honesty. Being a stay at home mom and also home schooling are big, important jobs. I hope you find time for yourself regularly to regroup, to refresh and just breathe. Lori

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